Sunday, January 25, 2015
I admire my mother, her strength, her kindness, her gentle heart. I only wish she could hear me, truly hear me. I only wish she could see me, truly see me. After almost a month of not speaking I find myself back at a place where I feel we cannot speak. It saddens me to my core. I wish her peace in her heart as I wish the same for my self. Can we look eye to eye without defenses and speak? I don't know the answer. It has never been possible and perhaps a desire for something real beyond empty conversations about the weather are all there is for us to share. Is that enough? Is it enough to just know someone loves you but does not respect your life, your love, who you really are? Is it enough to be loved partially by a parent who should love you fully?
I think of my friends who have lost parents. Do I take what I have for granted by trying to make its broken parts work? Should I just be happy for what I have, however dysfunctional it is? Do I just accept that it will never be something that equals what I want the relationship to be? These are the questions that turn inside of me. I am human and I feel pain. She is human and she feels pain. We love each other and yet we hurt each other.
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Friday, April 25, 2014
Saturday, March 15, 2014
2. Mama Don't Like No Chocolate
3. Throw That Box
4. Glitters and Sparkles
6. Mr. Carpentier
7. Life Was Simple
8. Chickens and Eggs
9. Duct Tape and Super Glue
10. Ashes and Dust
Well this week I send off final notes for some minor changes to the mastered 2nd album.
Next up is photos and artwork. Soon I will have an actual release date to share with you.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I adore Joanna Newsom. Seriously I do. The coordination required to flawlessly play the harp is its own award-worthy talent. Couple that with the ability to simultaneously sound like some sort of old appellation woman shouting jibberish on her front porch while pa whittles squirrel shaped wooden figurines and I'm sold. Sign me up.
I recently stumbled upon a live performance of Have one on me from the Austin City Limits series. The title track from Joanna's ambitious triple album is by far my favorite offering on that 2010 release. We own this on vinyl and just a side-note the packaging is stunning featuring these timeless stylized black and white photos of Joanna.
Here is the Austin City Limits performance.
As the title suggests, there is some free music if you feel so inclined to reward yourself with free music. I stumbled upon a cover of Joanna's The Book of Right-On, done by Joel Cathey which is available for free download on his BandCamp Page. Have one on me or rather on him. You're welcome. ;)
If you haven't heard the original, here she is for reference.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
On July 21st at 8pm in NYC I will be performing
The Ocean & The Easel Part 1: The Ocean
This is an original concept album that I have been working
on for a bit now. The songs have never been performed together
in their entirety and this is a one time performance which will
combine visual elements of video, lighting and costume along
with the music and guest performers. I am very excited to
share this with you all.
More details to come soon.
Thursday, March 08, 2012
Where does one go to find a lost mind full of lost time and lost words? Do you lift up the sofa cushions and dig through the loose change, wads of paper and bits of random crap? Is there a cardboard box at the police station or the post office tattooed with black sharpie?
This thought or rather this question rattles around in my empty head echoing and reverberating against the sides of my skull.
With most lost things they (who is they?) tell you to retrace your steps. Where did you last see your mind? Where might you have left it, dear? I trace backwards to my husband being taken from me and banned from the country, my wedding, being hit by a car, panic attacks unable to find my breath, my father's accident, deaths, births, the loss of my best friend, the loss of my self-confidence. All of this is painted with the brush of sleepless nights, of worry, of self-doubt and of deep joy and deep loss, deep depression and paralysis.
Somewhere along the line, the circuitry got fried and the mind escaped to save itself, jumped overboard to try its luck with the sharks and Portuguese man o' wars. The search party was too exhausted to look for long and the mind washed up on some distant shore, but alas, we shall find it and stuff it back. It wasn't too much of a loss as no one seemed to really notice it was gone.
I am working on the last two songs in my Eat My Shorts series. The current one is aptly named Crazy. coming soon.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Thank you to everyone who made the night so very special.
The set list was as follows
1. Louise (unreleased/O&E1)
2. The Bottle (unreleased/O&E1)
3. Sally (unreleased/O&E1)
4. Narcissus Sea (unreleased/O&E1)
5. The Seaman's Wharf * (unreleased/O&E1)
6. Flapjacks (unreleased/SRATS)
7. Lemon Scented (S.O.B.)
8. Follow Me Home (S.O.B.)
9. Sirens of Brooklyn (S.O.B.)
10. Mr. Carpentier (unplug single/SRATS)
11. Fishnet Sailor (S.O.B.)
12. Before You Go (S.O.B.)
13. Banana Leaves (unreleased/O&E1)
*=premiere/first time performed live
S.O.B = from the album Sirens of Brooklyn
SRATS = from the unreleased album Sunrise at the Speakeasy (coming 2012)
O&E1 = from The Ocean & The Easel (part 1)
unplug = unplug single
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Last year, I recorded two songs in my home studio for the lovely Wanda Wisdom's Christmas Special.
The tracks were written, recorded and mixed over the course of only a couple days.
If i remember correctly, her instructions were to give her something that was somewhere
between Burl Ives and John Waters. I'd like to think I succeeded.
These short ditties are downright filthy, so parental advisory kiddies.
Xmas Bells/White Xmas by robertgermanmusic
Occasionally I stumble upon an article that reminds me of something I posted years ago. So, today I present two articles.
The Cellphone is the New Cigarette - The Rant 2006
Technology is the New Smoking - TechCrunch 2011
Friday, December 02, 2011
1. Release of Sunrise at the Speakeasy in 2012 (finally)
2. Finish studio recordings of the following unreleased songs:
The Ocean & The Easel Part 1 :The Ocean
-The Seaman's Wharf
-Fishes & Birds
-Chicken of the Sea (taste like chicken)
-Mister Octopus (yes, that is the title)
-Portuguese Man of War
-The Ocean & The Easel
The Ocean & The Easel Part 2: The Easel
-Pretty Decent Guy
-After the Apocalypse
-God in The Telephone Book
-Down So Low
-Big from Down Here/Sirens of Brooklyn (ballad version)
-The Famine & The Flood
-Act Like a Girl
3. Move to Canada.
There you have it.
Friday, September 16, 2011
I was weighed down carrying two bags this morning and was diverted into a small pathway due to a construction area. I passed a woman and she turned around and started screaming at me.
"What's the matter with you? You can't walk in a straight line?"
5 years ago I had an accident and consequently I walk with a slight limp. It's not something I often talk about. It doesn't so much make me feel deformed or less able, however it is more promounced with I carry bags or heavy awkward things.
In this situation I chose to keep walking as though I didn't hear the woman.
A tiny voice in my head however screemed "I was in an accident and walk with a fucking limp. What's your excuse for being a nasty cunt?"
please pardon the foul language of the little voice in my head most especially its use of the "c" word. I mean no disrespect to women by its usage here. I know how distasteful it is and thus, it's probably for the best that the little voice remained in my head, though now it's had its say on my blog as well.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I haven't had a chance to listen to this yet, but I thought I'd post now and give opinions later. The new Tori Amos album Night of Hunters is now streaming on NPRs website. Go forth and listen!
Monday, September 05, 2011
NPR has really been doing a great job of making me happy by streaming the albums
of some of my favorite musicians before the release dates. Being a child who couldn't
resist shaking the presents before Christmas Day, this is something with makes me exceedingly happy.
You can have a listen to St. Vincent's Strange Mercy in its entirety over on NPR's
Enjoy! The album is scheduled for a September 13th release date.
Friday, September 02, 2011
There are certain questions which keep finding their way into my thought patterns.
This is one that has circled around for a while.
Why is the U.S.A. seemingly in charge of policing nuclear weapons worldwide when it is the only country which has actually used nuclear weapons against other human beings?
As you ponder this question, I leave you with a very literal video for Ani DiFranco's "The Atom" made by a fan and posted to Youtube. Happy Friday! Enjoy.
Thursday, September 01, 2011
Amy Sedaris has always been my hero.
Whenever I'm a little down
I know that she's there
to help put things into perspective.
She also teaches me things...
important things like hygiene.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
J.D. Doyle is the foremost historian of queer music.
His knowledge is unrivaled. Not only is he a staunch supporter
of Out artists and their works, but he is also just a really nice guy.
I had the pleasure of meeting J.D. back in 2006 when I had the honor of recording an intro to accompany my song Marlboro man for his program.
This month, you can hear two songs in my eat my shorts series being played on the september edition of Out Radio. There are many talented musicians, too many to name with whom I share this honor.
Head over to JD's site and check out the playlist where you can also
listen to the program.
The Irrepressibles have been on my musical radar for a while now thanks
to their introduction by the lovely Gilles-Mathieu Laberge, my friend up north in Montréal.
The Scandi (Norwegian Electronica) group Royksopp has put their own subtle but lovely twist on the track In This Shirt, which is now downloadable from their site.
Get it here for Free!
Also, if you haven't seen the music video from Pag directed by Roy Raz (non official) for the same song, I highly recommend you give it a looksy. Pure eye candy.